Romeo and I
Who knew that the prompting to write my first blog ever would come from Romeo? No surprise to those who know me, I guess, as Romeo, aka my little shaman dog, is well know in my healing circles because he has been helping me with clients and ceremonies for 6 years. He usually is sunning himself (yes I live in CA) while I phone with distant clients. In-person clients really need his attention, especially if they are new. One may find him curled up in the leather chair normally reserved for the client and he lays on the healing table once they leave (his logic, not mine). Regular in-person clients get his normal greeting but he trusts me enough to not goof up the process and to take care of them myself.
His more amazing gift is companionship in ceremony. He greets everyone individually as they arrive and makes sure everyone is OK. If there is something I missed energetically (especially on a long day), he is usually seen coming up to the mesa and standing between me and the person until we see what is going on. Then he is happy. He comes to the mesa for his mapacho or copal cleanse and then takes his nap close by. By the way, these are only his amazing qualities as my shamanic friend.
He has taught me so much about the heaviness of anger, coming from a dog who was fought and very aggressive in his life prior to being a loved member of the family. He teaches me that life is easier and more joyful when one can shed the past and live happily and easily in this moment. It is of no surprise that his critical incident which came at a time that can only be divinely orchestrated is my biggest prompting to live all that I teach.
Since the rather intense and amazingly transformative energies of this Easter, I personally lost my home, some other very precious foundational things, had another treatment of stem cell therapy in Mexico and then 2 days after that a rattlesnake comes straight up to my friend and I (on my patio) and Romeo intervenes and is now fighting for his life.
I felt as if I was really doing the “work” and finding my balance, being in my knowing and really challenging myself on how not to resort to old patterns until Romeo got bit. I never recognized this as a dark night with all its devastation, dreams of tidal waves and fire, and clearing everything in my life via machete (yes, a bit dense at times) until midnight on Monday when the Dr. delivered the heavy news about Romeo. He was already in treatment for 36 hours and he was unresponsive.
I felt as if the last dam within me broke and the heartache was felt right down through the center of mother earth.
I am learning so many things about myself and my reality right now. The few that I would love to share right now as I wait to see Romeo follow:
- The Divine which is in me and around me is WITH me through all the chaotic manifestations of my reality.
- Trust in the above-mentioned Divine is not a plea or hope but an underlying stability and foundation that even the greatest heartache can not diminish. It can only strengthen and grow.
- I asked (on Easter) for a deeper sense and connection to “community spirit.” Little did I know how that would be answered and shown to me, yet it has exploded. It showed up first through ceremony with friends and now more brilliantly through the love and prayers from friends, family, connections from past and present and even from friends of friends that I have never met.
- The only path to freedom and possibility must include letting go without resistance to all that no longer aligns with me in this new moment. That the lies I tell myself about what sustains me (outside of me) is the only thing that keeps me realizing my own infinite self, my sacred divinity and my miraculous creativity. Same for everyone.
Rattlesnake is the strongest symbol of shamanic death, letting go of the old, transformation, transmutation into greater compassion and wisdom. I will not ignore all that is being presented to me as an offering into a new way of being – the same that is being offered to everyone on the planet today, in this moment, in our own personal ways.
I will continue to let go. I will continue to see miracles in everything around me. I will continue to see my fellows as sacred and divine. I will continue to see this planet and all that it presents to me as precious. I will continue to help others in their own transformation. I will continue to offer myself as a rising vibration on this planet in order to contribute to the new; not align in unconsciousness and habits to strengthen the old, heavier vibrations.
With all humility and love, I will continue to ask for the wholeness of my precious little buddy Romeo from the heart of “Thy will be done.” I continue to ask for your prayers, light and love for him. And, I hold each of you in my heart as new possibilities, abundance, love, miracles and grace enter your lives gently and easily bringing joy and peace.